Sonya

Yesterday I was meant to see Simona, instead Sonya called me telling me that she wanted to see me and talk about our situation because it is unclear what is going on between us and if there is still something.

We met and it was really hard to tell that all is over. she asked me if there was another woman but I told her that it had nothing to do with a third person between us. She believed me and she asked whether we wanted to take some time apart before saying good bye. I accepted even if I really should have told her that it's over.

Anyway, I will see her in October, this is the agreement, for her birthday and decide whether we will marry or say farewell.

I tried to see Simona but she was to busy. I tried to meet Flavio, he wasto busy, so I met Anneka, instead. I went to pick her up at work and we went to a hotel in a sea resort, in Sperlonga. I had the impression they knew her there but I must be wrong. We had sex... It was great but I regretted immediately. I felt guilty towards Simona even if she is not my girlfriend.

Anyway, I don't even want to mention it, it meant really nothing to me and it is a one off. It's over... It never started, really.

Sorry Simona... Probably I should say sorry to Sonya, but I don't know why I do not feel guilty towards her...

Too down to continue tonight... I feel I am in love and the sense of guilt is a proof. I should tell Simona clearly about my feelings...